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11 Jun

Negative Thoughts On Early Monday Morning

Posted by renxkyoko in Anthony Bourdain, suicide, Random thoughts. Tagged: , .

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I am quite devastated re Anthony Bourdain’s  suicide….. and mad at him. Why did he do that ? His and Andrew Zimmern’s shows are two of my favorite shows , ever. ……. and I just binge-watched his Parts Unknown last month on Netflix.  ( I watched No Reservations  on Travel Channel )  . I was waiting for Season 2  of Parts Unknown, but now, I don’t think I can watch that anymore. It’s incomprehensible why very successful people like Anthony Bourdain would end their lives. There are millions and million others who struggle to keep themselves  alive,  people in war-torn areas and the sick, and people who are starving.  Was it the constant pressure  of  his  job, or had he gotten sick and tired of the endless travelling and living in hotels?  Didn’t he ever think of just quitting, leave everything behind, and live the rest of his life  watching his  11 – year old daughter grow ,  and smelling the roses?

 

It’s really a mystery how our minds work, isn’t it ?  Here’s the thing, though….. for some reason , I think I  understand  why  he had decided to end his life.  I have a confession to make.  I was so devastated, depressed,  and distraught over the election of this   T-t-t-trump  person  that I felt  I wanted to die.  Don’t get me wrong….  I didn’t think of ending my life… I just wanted to die….. big difference. But the emotion of disappearing from the face of the earth was frighteningly real .

 

*  pondering *

 

Anyway,  I’m offering this flower ( amaryllis ) to Anthony Bourdain.  This one didn’t bloom for 3 years, and when it finally did, the gift of  beauty was spectacular.  Rest in peace, Anthony Bourdain.  ” You can go home home now  . You’re free. ”  ( a quote from the video game God of War )

 

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Thank you for reading.  See you next time , and peace.

 

Check out my video games/anime/manga blogsite @ https://2megaworthitwordpresscomblog.wordpress.com/

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

29 May

The Geek In Me Arises Again

Posted by renxkyoko in God of War 4, Kratos, video games, geekiness, political rant, Random thoughts. Tagged: , , , .

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As the title says, the geek in me rises again.  I just bought a video game titled  God Of War 4, one of my all – time favorite video games.  This is why I’ve been AWOL  on WordPress  these past few days.   When I play, nothing can interrupt me, except work, of course..  In fact,  I’d rather play my  favorite game than date a hot guy.  ^__^    ” Ren, you bailed on him ???  You kidding ? ”   Me:  “He can wait…. Kratos  can’t. ”

 

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The game is heart attack difficult.  My character had to die more than a dozen times before I could figure out the way to defeat an enemy boss.

 

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I know some of you are thinking…. ” what’s so good about video games , and why do  people indulge in such unproductive , make – believe stuff ? ”   Those who love to play are the only ones  who can understand. But do you know  seniors  at retirement homes are actually encouraged to play video games ? Video games are almost all about strategy , quick  responses and reflexes, so when they play, they get to exercise their mental  and physical  faculties.  Do video games  make people dumb? I don’t think so.  It’s only when people do everything  excessively that  makes it a bad thing. Anything done in excess is bad.  Any food consumed  in excess is toxic, even water.  That’s the first thing a student  learns in Toxicology.  Don’t believe  everything that you read  especially those written by celebrities and science ” journalists”.

 

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There are so many bloggers here on WordPress who are so good in writing  down their motivational, spiritual, and  inspirational thoughts ….. and then they   let out they are  rabid  admirers and supporters of  that person  temporarily living at  the White House.   I don’t care who they support and admire…. it is their right. They can  be admirers of Hitler  and Mussolini for all I care, or  secret members of the Klu Klux Klan.  Each to his /her own.   But Jesus, Mary and Joseph,  don’t  talk and preach about honesty, integrity, truthfulness, kindness , fidelity, and all these saintly virtues ,as if they all come from their hearts  and the heavens, when , in fact, they all come out of their asses.

 

You :  Wait… what !  Where did that come from, Ren ?  Isn’t this post about God of War ?   Me : Well, my thoughts do tend to meander… from video games to politics, so don’t judge.

 

Alright, back to video games…..

 

At first , my gameplay is awkward and clumsy, ( sorry, Kratos )  but  I’m getting so much better as the game progresses…. not badass yet, but I’m getting there.  ( I always GoW on Hard Mode.  I love to savor each and every hard -earned victory. )

 

Well, that’s it.  I’m going to  post my review of the game on my anime/manga /video games blogsite  @ https://2megaworthitwordpresscomblog.wordpress.com/

 

I hope to finish this very soon.  In the meantime,  my blog reading will take a back seat while video game playing  takes the front seat.  I’m on Cloud 9.

 

Bye and peace to all ! !

 

 

 

19 May

Saturday Ramblings

Posted by renxkyoko in gardening, Violet Evergarden anime, walis tinting, Random thoughts. Tagged: , , .

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I’ve been busy gardening.  I take care of the frontyard. My mother takes care of the backyard.  I’ve already spent so much for pots and plants. I’m obsessing on bromeliads.

 

I also bought petunias to replace the dead ones.   Garden business   here in the US is a billion dollar industy.   Every year , we buy so many flowering plants for so-called instant garden.  Then they all die in winter.  6_6

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I need to buy some more petunias for the hanging pots.

 

And I mowed the lawn this morning.  Do you know what we use to clean the pathways ? Nope, not a rake.  We use ” walis  tinting” , which we buy at the Filipino supermarket.  It’s very efficient and easy to use, for some reason.  The only drawback is that I have to bend a little while sweeping and it doesn’t take long before my back starts aching.

 

Walis means broom. I don’t know what tinting means.  It’s made of dried  “veins” of  coconut leaves.

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I also bought a new iPhone, and ta dah  ! an Apple watch ! !  I didn’t have a mobile for almost a week.

 

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This is all for now. Thanks for reading and peace ! !

 

Please check out my anime/manga /video games blogsite  @ https://2megaworthitwordpresscomblog.wordpress.com/              I have a new entry…. Violet Evergarden ,  a Netflix original anime. I gave this a 10/10  rating. Even if you’re not an anime fan,  this  is  one that is definitely worth watching.  It won’t be a waste of your  precious time, I assure you.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

9 May

Meandering Thoughts on Wordless Wednesday

Posted by renxkyoko in Random thoughts, World War 2 in the Philippines, Fort Santiago. Tagged: , .

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Sorry I haven’t been reading your blogs.  I’m busy doing some spring – cleaning chores, and you know, I can only do these tasks in the morning, which is my blog reading time.   There’s really not much to talk about anyway. All is quiet on the western front.  After the events of the past weeks, I guess that’s a good thing, right ?

 

So, with nothing on my mind at the moment, what do I do?  Post random pictures, of course. Photos below were taken in the Philippines.

 

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Manila Cathedral

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Statue of King Charles, right across from the Cathedral

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The gentleman in the photo wears an old policeman uniform  of  Spanish era.  * stares at my pic….. whoa ! That’s proof right there !  I really did pack in 15 lbs. during my vacation in the Philippines !  ( too much eating at eat-all you can buffets ) *

 

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Old , well – preserved buildings, Spanish era Philippine architecture

 

 

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Entrance, Fort Santiago

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Fort Santiago….. oh,look ! There’s a moat! Cool!

It’s a pity there’s very little left of the old, Spanish colonial city of Manila.  The city used to be the  most beautiful in Asia , (  called the Paris of Asia ) , with wide , cobbled stone avenues and streets,   European style fountains everywhere,  beautiful bridges

 

It was for that reason that Gen. Douglas McArthur declared Manila an Open City, allowing Japanese invaders to come in without bombing the city while the US Army retreated to somewhere outside of Manila.  Ironically, it was American planes that flattened the city in 1945. Street to street fighting and tanks and artillery  blew up the rest that were still standing. Manila was the second most destroyed city during WW2 , next to Warsaw which was # 1.  ( of course, Hiroshima and Nagasaki  are excluded…. that’s a different level )

Whoa !  Japanese soldiers were already walking around peacefully in this pic.

 

 

Destroyed  16th century  old Fort Santiago. That was an American tank right there. Well, that’s war.  Not blaming anyone. The fact is, real World War 2  action in Asia happened in Manila, Philippines, and nowhere else. The Japanese bombed the country 8 hours after Pearl Harbor. Well, the Philippines was an American territory then,  so, invading it was like invading the US.

 

* pondering*

 

Where was I ? Didn’t I just say my mind was blank and I had nothing to talk about ?

 

I better stop here before my thoughts meander from Manila to ancient Mesopotamia. 6_6

 

Thank you for reading and putting up with my ramblings.  Bye and peace !

 

Check out my anime/manga/videogames  blogsite  @  https://2megaworthitwordpresscomblog.wordpress.com/

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

29 Apr

Sunday Ramblings and other stuff

Posted by renxkyoko in Random thoughts, stalking problem, my best friend's wedding. Tagged: , , .

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Ah, I wish I could end my stalking saga. Alas.  Something happened again. No smashing of car windows, nothing like that. This time , it’s   creepy, and scarier.

 

I got bunches of flowers ( and 3 potted orchid plants ) from my stalker ex  Friday morning at 5:30 AM.  He left the flowers  at our front porch. Our security camera caught his image trespassing….. we now have proof  he’s doing something illegal, and therefore , I can now  file a Restraining Order against him.  ( See photo of flowers below )

 

 

It’s a good thing I didn’t  see him that morning.  I left at 6: 30 AM to attend my best friend’s wedding .  As a Maid of Honor, I came early to help and assist in the wedding preparations ( plus I had my make-up done over there , together with the rest of the entourage ) . I was running late so I didn’t notice the bunch of flowers sitting in our porch bench. * shivers*

 

About the wedding……..

 

I was Maid of Honor. Unfortunately , I didn’t get to take a single photo of the event.  I was so busy taking care of stuff  for the bride I felt like I was the  wedding planner.  ( or her personal maid…. just kidding.  )  I also gave a speech or what we call a toast  ( aaargh ) and , at one point during my speech, I choked. (  eeew ! ) I didn’t cry, but my voice did tremble a bit. She’s my childhood friend, after all. We’ve been close friends since elementary , same elementary school, middle school, high school, university…  and, she lived right across from our house.

 

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My 2 best friends…. the bride ‘s on the left. The other one is a police officer.  The bride is a Criminal Justice grad and works at a police HQ here.  ( I haven’t told them about my situation…. they both know my ex…. we all went to the same high school )

 

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This is all for now. I hope you haven’t gotten sick and tired of my stalking problem.

 

And check out  my manga/anime/video games blogsite @ https://2megaworthitwordpresscomblog.wordpress.com/

 

Thank you for reading, and peace.

 

 

 

 

 

22 Apr

Saturday Musings

Posted by renxkyoko in mangas/animes, Mountain hiking, Restraining order, my life, random musings, Random thoughts, relationships. Tagged: , .

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I bought a security camera for our house.  Just one camera . I’ll add more later. It’s not cheap. ( $200 ) . It’s wireless,  130 degree angle, HD , night vision, illuminates up to 25 ft., audio, ( speaker and microphone) , and there’s a built – in siren

 

So, why did I buy a security camera?   Most of you have read my 2 previous posts.   This week,  my car’s window had been smashed,  and my dad’s  had been egged.  We have no proof who the culprit is, that’s why I   can’t file a Restraining Order against  my ex.  At least, the culprit didn’t key my car.  Thank goodness for small mercies.  Even though my car is 10 years old (  a 2008 BMW , my mother’s originally ) it’s in mint condition. It’s so clean it sparkles. lol  Just kidding.

 

Oh, yeah, I went hiking  last week with my co-workers.  Photo taken in Auburn, California. That’s yours truly in the photo.

 

 

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My mother and I are planning to visit Japan in Oct. 2019.   Well, when we went on European tour  years ago, we bought our tickets and tour package  9 months earlier.   I wonder why our 30-day packaged Euro tour is so much cheaper than the 10 -day Japanese tour, though.  I mean, almost the same price ! !  Is Japan really that expensive ? Anyways,  I’m already excited to see Akihabara  shopping district , the center of Japan’s manga/anime/otaku culture.

 

This is all for now.  I hope this will be the last post re that troublesome   person. No news is good news, right ?

 

And please check out my manga/anime/video games blogsite @ https://2megaworthitwordpresscomblog.wordpress.com/           I have a new post….. an original Netflix anime, BLAME!

 

Thank you for reading and peace !

 

13 Apr

The Worst ! An Update on ” Domestic Disturbance “

Posted by renxkyoko in Random thoughts. Tagged: , , .

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Kindly read the previous post. This is just an update.

 

So, the disturbance occurred  early Tuesday morning.  I went out  at 12:30 PM , same day, for my annual dental appointment .  While waiting for the dentist to see me, I got a call from my cousin who said that guy was back, and he was  with another guy. I got called by the dentist at that moment so I  told her not to confront them  and to just  call the cops. ( Dental  work took longer than expected)  My mother was with me, but left to do some shopping at nearby grocery and  didn’t know about the call. Anyways, I called back my cousin   on our drive home, ( about 3 :30 PM ) and we were informed she did call  the cops………. and 4 police cars arrived , with 4 cops. Why so many ? Well, there were 2 hostile  men, and the situation was , 2 cops per person, just in case.  o.O”  (This is America, folks.)  She also told me they were gone,  so it was safe to come home.

 

Then, guess what happened  when we arrived.

 

My ex and a companion  parked their car somewhere where they could see our arrival. We were surprised to see them drive over the pavement , and over a portion of our driveway, DIAGONALLY !  That is how cops   park their cars  when  they want  to block a road. Right ?   Mom calmly told  them to get off our property. How about me ? Well,  I had a mental block.  Then Mom called my cousin and told her to bring Taylor out and hand her over to this guy. It was my cousin’s boyfriend who came out with the dog, and told him , ”  you have the dog, now get off the property.” The 2 guys looked like they were going to punch him. (  They had a heated argument  earlier before the cops came. ) We were surprised to see our 2 neighbors  rushed over to help us.  ( I didn’t even notice they were there ) Their conversation was loud and heated. When the neighbors threatened to call the cops , they left hurriedly , with our dog, who was then barking crazily.

 

Guys, my story  is  condensed and  sanitized.

 

It’s weird that one of the things I do remember  is the image  of 3 brown women ( Mom, cousin and  I ) huddling together and 5 adult  white men having a loud , heated conversation.

 

Also, I’d like to thank those who showed their concern and suggestions in their comments . Although I wasn’t able to respond , I’d like you to know they’re very much appreciated.

 

One good news.  I’m getting a new dog  from the animal shelter and he already has a name…. Holden.

 

This is all for now. Thank you for reading and peace.

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